I dont want to close my eyes

i dont wanna close my eyes... i dont wanna fall asleep..

cause i miss you and i dont want to miss a thing

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I secretly think a guy and a girl can never be just best friends.

One of them will definitely fall for the other.

there's goes 9 years....

A battle . 9 years battling with 'it' eiher night and days.. and like most of the time tht i've heard mybe for the rest of my lives. "Be Strong", " U can make it"...hurm..but for me it was tough..real though if without support of my family, mom and dad ,friends (especially my roomates)

But recently, thankfully, I have felt much, much better in myself and happier, and I feel that there is a purpose to my existence. I just hope this feeling lasts for a very long time, now its here.

I have a very good life, I have everything I need and want in my life, and more! And I even learn new things. A new favorite songs genre. English to Japanese and Koreans.. Boyish to a very graceful girl..hehehe...So I'm a very, very lucky woman.No..No. I only 19.Still a girl..yup. A lucky Girl. But I have, like everyone has, those things that just make me so much happier and make my day so much more worthwhile and better.

By being here, jus ryte here, ryte here where i stand.. I had everything.. for now~

11.11~

I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either,

but please believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side,

to hold your hand going hrough challenges,

to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide,

to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and for the rest of my living years,

to comfort you,

dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears,

to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land

Those doesnt mean tht it is necessary for me to be somebody 'special' in your life to express tht as

A friend can also express it in the exact same way

p/s: like wht my fren says 11.11 means tht sumbdy is missing u

Dreams only last one night

Once there's a person that told me dreams only last for one nights but love stay forever~ yup.. when he's gone.. the simple words seems so hard to be digest by me...

Why? Why? why dream cannot last forever? We don’t dream of normal things or things that are within our grasp. ryte?We dream of things that seem impossible or unreal or things that are just out of reach.

We dream and we dream and hope that one day, it just might come true. Sometimes we work hard to pave steps, however small, to go towards that dream. Other times we are just content to live in our dreams, where everything is possible and anything can happen. So, Dreams not only last for one night kan?

hurm.. what i dreamt of?

For sure I dream of turning back time. I dream of going back to a time when I was happy and life was uncomplicated like now. I dont wan to grow up.. as I grow up, my imagination and all those 'Memories' will fade slowly... besides, it is hard to grow up when you live in a community that are not matured yet.. rs2nye.. based on my experience and observation ..

And of course I dream of being with him again. yup.. the one tht always comfort me whn i'm down, the one who helps me to settle the problem. The one tht always been there besides me to share stories and everything. So many things tht sometimes make me shed the warm liquids on my cheeks when all those memories started to play in my medulla oblongata. Hurm.. I miss the way of he treated as a friend..hehe..friend??.. If and only if i could turn back time.. but then if I turned it back... I will Lost the most precious tht i never had before. The lost tht already foun

d, like the one tht i wrote in my bEbply books.Nobody ever read tht yet...The most Precious is Her... *wish u read this dear... yup.. seriously your present in my life gave me strength to keep moving on.And thats why sometimes you may hv a thought tht i Over caring kan2?.. and I'm Sorry..because I such a troublesome.. I creates problem more than wht i've done to help you :((... But after all, I always pray for ur health, HappIness and Success... Sarangheyo ~;))

I dream of living in raiekimi land (a place for me), of living in a secret world where there's only happiness. No pain and violence. where there is only me and you. Yup. Only us.. Where there is shopping complexs, sports centre, shopping complexs, and shopping complexs and ShOPpiNG ...and wee..(with excitement) I love it especially when I'm with her. (n_o) ,The best moments tht i ever had with my friend.

But the truth is, every night I say a little prayer hoping that i would dream of him, as i Miss Him so much..dont know why. My frens do asked me, why sometimes for someone tht we love so much ,he/she is being took away from us... and there's i uttering not even a word..*speechless.... Every night I pray for my friends and him so tht i could be with him for one more time and to make sure tht the bonds of friendship tht i had with her (the one) will last foreva till we'll meet again in Jannah. Her love and friendship, that was all i needed, at least for now

When There's A Believe, There's A MaGic.. ^-^

yup... maGic... hurm....

actually wht i'm tryin to say here is the wonder and magic of friendship~ yup..

F.R.I.E.N.D..

for those who know me, they know who i am... and i do hope they know thAT i LOVE them so much..but sometimes it seems so hard for me to express i..so I'm SORRY dear..

and b4 i forgot, i want to thanks all my frens and teachers who had wished me for my BIrthday..

1. Short and simple messages but means a lot to me

2. A ride on a bus to my kampus wih my best friend aka roomate..

3. Shopping

4. Birtday cards

5. Cutey Star....

6. Drawing

7. Pictures of me and her..

8. Her precious of excited 'little' SMilLE

After all... Thanks to >>> my mom and my dad for the birthday wishes.

* my rum8 aka my besties... for the short and meaningful sms

*friends....MAths @ and Maths 1

*OHAna....

*Jitra-Ians..and

*my Teachers...

Thank You so Much for the Wishes..I'll try to do the best ht i can for this 19

Happy Teacher's Day!!

this wonderful morning make me smile to my cheek..hehe~

Today , Things to do:

1. Wish my Mom and Dad ~ Happy Teacher's Day...
2. Wish my um8 yg tersayang.....
3. Wish my Teachers...MRSM LANgkawi, SMK Jitra, SK Tunjang,Sk Padang perahu, SK Binjal... and sgala2 Sk yg berkaitan dgn Diriku....
4. wishing my classmates..... even we are not a true teacher yet...
5. Attend campus activities
6. Card delivery...... CHOCOLATES!! I LOve It...Thank You AH....
7. Join the explorace?? Hurm... depends...
8. Wishing my coach....
9. Having he best Teacher's celebration eva....

weeeeeeeeeee...............

Hope everything goes well~ I LOVE MY TEACHERS...

TO ALL MY TEACHERS: WISH U HAPPY TEACHER"S DAY